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Still Angry
It’s weird. I try to put it behind me, but when I think about it… I feel the rage well up inside me all over again. I never believed friendships could break your heart… But now I know different. You changed the way I approach friendships and you broke my self-confidence, made me unable to trust my own judgment. You bit the hand that fed you and you spat in my face. To say I’m not bitter would be an absolute lie. Even though I’ve cut you off, the nightmare of you still lingers and I am STILL cleaning up your messes.
To hear what I heard last night was like opening the wound all over again and then pouring salt in it. Years of this and to find out that even after all was said and done, you couldn’t take responsibility for your actions, and to say I overreacted?! I was civil to you. MORE than civil. You hurt me beyond anything I could have ever imagined A FRIEND doing, but I’m not even ALLOWED to overreact?
I need to stop thinking about this. My OCD won’t let me… but I need to. I want to just get over it already.
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Marriage Proposal of the Day: In what is believed to be the first proposal of marriage between two gay men — and war vets — on a U.S. military base, Navy vet Cory Huston asked Marine Avarice Guerrero to marry him Tuesday at Camp Pendleton in San Diego. Here’s the story:
Under a bright Southern California sky at Camp Pendleton’s Camp Del Mar near Oceanside, California, a full two hours before his boyfriend’s return from the badlands of Afghanistan, Cory Huston waited nervously. Huston, who was discharged under the former Don’t Ask Don’t Tell policy, chain smoked as he rehearsed the simple proposal he would deliver when Guerrero would arrive.
Finally, luggage in tow, Guerrero emerged with a smile on his face. Upon seeing Huston, Guerrero dropped his bags; aimed a kiss toward Huston’s lips; and opened his arms to his boyfriends waiting embrace. The time and distance of 10 months’ separation evaporated in a public show of affection that less than a year ago would have been cause for court martial. After a few minutes of emotional holding and kissing, Huston went anxiously down on one knee; looked up at Guerrero, who was dressed from head to toe in military fatigues; and produced an engagement ring and the time-honored phrase, “Will you marry me?”
Huston’s mild tremble, a result of hours and days of anticipation about this day, was quickly quieted by the one word every hopeful fiancé wants to hear: “Yes.”
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Rules For Dating A Creative Writer
If there can be rules for dating a musician, there should probably be rules for dating any artist. Since I happen to be a creative writer, I can help in that category. Remember these things:
1. Don’t break a writer’s heart unless you want, or don’t mind, your entire psyche reproduced on paper and that embarrassing habit of yours amplified for the world to see(and probably judge).
2. We are always going to have a muse. If we don’t, our work suffers. Whether it be another human being, an animal, an inanimate object, don’t take it personal if that thing(or person) becomes more important than you while we’re deep in writing. If you were that muse, you’d be top priority, too. It’s like a mascot or a pair of lucky underwear.
3. Disappearing acts are normal. We become reclusive because the world is distracting. YOU are distracting. Don’t take it personal. It’s who we are. All that matters is the story. We will shut our phones off and disconnect from everything, including social gatherings, to finish the story.
4. You could come in after a long day of work and completely vent about something extremely passionate to you or really got your goat, and we won’t say a word. Why? It’s not because we don’t care. I’m sure, if you hadn’t just walked into our office while we were working, ranting and raving, we would have been more than willing to listen. Oh, also, if we have headphones on, we can’t even hear you. Chances are, we were in such a zone, we don’t even know you’re in the room.
5. So you sit behind a desk from 9-5? Annoying boss? Bitchy coworkers? Think you’re so much better than us because you “work for a living”? Writers have no boss; we have to have self-discipline(which, when you think of how much we overindulge, is nonexistent). The only person telling us to do things is us. We have to be our own self-motivators, cheerleaders, time managers, therapists, note takers, assistants, publicists, chefs, banks, calculators, hustlers, etc. We do EVERYTHING ourselves. AND we do it with little to no physical social interaction. Sometimes we go days without even seeing daylight. Misery is relative: Maybe you’d like to make your own hours. We’d love to have someone kicking our ass besides ourselves or a 401K or an annoying coworker or two. Mostly the 401K. We don’t get the luxury of retirement.
6. Creative writing is not a skill. It is a talent. Not everyone was born to weave a gripping plot. Do not immediately pitch me your story as if we are colleagues. I don’t start trying to sell you stock or treat you for cancer. I’m not a doctor or a stockbroker, I’m a writer. I learn about you to write you one day, not become you.
7. It’s called NETWORKING. These days, careers like ours are made and broken on it. I’m not flirting with that six foot gentleman in the thousand dollar suit, I’m feeling him out to see if he’ll make good subject material. Everyone is a character. Literally.
8. Yes, a fair amount of us are lushes with lax morals and barely any principles. You’ll know if you’ve met one. Until then, make no assumptions.
9. We obsess over one simple line just as much as you obsess over the little wrinkle in your forehead. We AGONIZE over word choice like it’s Christmas dinner with your in-laws. We talk to ourselves out loud, we act out our scenes with ourselves. We get in a zone that doesn’t include you. Writers are not for the emotionally needy or overly sensitive. We could spend days on one piece of dialogue and ten seconds picking your birthday gift. Your birthday gift will not decide our career, unless you happen to be in a position to elevate our status in the industry. That line, on the other hand, most definitely could.
10. We didn’t forget your birthday. Or our anniversary. We were working, probably on a deadline. We will make it up to you if we’re worth it. Also, if we think you’re worth it.
11. We need support just like you do. “Oh, you work from home and write stories all day, you have the coolest job ever” is NOT a compliment OR support. That just makes us feel like less than what we are. Whether you like it or not, we are entertainers. We have a lot more than stories in us.
12. Writers are very cerebral people. We enjoy psychological analysis. It makes for a well rounded character. The more neurotic you are, the more we’re going to enjoy you. You’ll also be immortalized one day.
13. Never make any assumptions about anything. Writers are known for romanticizing everything, embellishing, telling pretty rhymes, but when it comes down to it, we always tell a version of the truth. Calling us liars is insulting. We understand the beauty of language.
14. Our habits as writers sometimes spill over into real life. If we need to drink to get into a meditative state so we can write, we probably need to drink to do anything else. We’re not alcoholics. Stop calling us that.
15. Finally, if we say we’ll do something, assume that we’ll actually be writing.
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I’ll answer these 53 Questions Because I’m Stuck In Bed and Bored
- What do you put on hotdogs? Ketchup and mustard, to cover the fact that I am eating something horrifically unhealthy
- Do you say “anticlimatic” or “anticlimactic”? Anticlimactic but I’m always wondering if I’m saying it right
- Do you check flyers before grocery shopping? No but mayhaps I should start
- Blue, black, or some other colour pen ink? I don’t really care… but usually I lean towards black
- Do you use your parking brake? When I had a car? No.
- How many framed pictures are on the wall? None, just things I’ve taped up on my wall
- Do you know how to play chess? Sort of. I played with my dad a lot when I was a child. I also used to play on my Mac. Now I rarely play.
- How often do you clean the interior of your car? Never, considering I am carless.
- Do you ever read the last few pages first? No. The way I choose a book I want to buy and/or read is by opening up to the middle of the book and reading a few sentences. If it catches my eye instantly I buy it. I’m not interested otherwise.
- Ever fallen in the shower? Probably while drunk.
- On a scale of 1-10, how likely are you to swear at other drivers? I don’t have a car to drive… but I rarely yelled AT drivers. I more just cursed a lot in general.
- What’s the worst thing you’ve ever called someone you care about? Probably called them a cunt. Although I honestly don’t know that I’ve said terrible things to someone I care about.
- Do you have a Snuggie? Actually, I do, but I have never used it. It’s in my room somewhere.
- Are you allergic to anything? UGHHHHHHH yes mold, mildew, harsh chemicals like bleach and ammonia, dust, cats, springtime allergies, sometimes summer allergies, and I’m pretty sure I’m allergic to bullshit and drama
- Do you have any TV shows on DVD? Yeah I have a few seasons of a few shows.
- How many times do you hit the snooze button before finally getting out of bed? probably a few times when I actually have to set an alarm.
- Ever driven away in anger? Yes. But then driving would calm me down.
- What’s your favourite freezie colour? If by “freezie” you mean “Slurpee” then Coca-Cola is my favorite.
- Are you a vegetarian? No, I could never give up cheeseburgers.
- Do you have a garbage receptacle beside you? What’s on top? I have a paper grocery bag that I’ve been throwing garbage in next to my bed… there is nothing on top of it
- Do you cross out your mistakes or erase/whiteout them? Cross out.
- Ever torn something up that you instantly knew was too important for such treatment? Probably
- Do you think that things will get better? If I don’t believe that, I will lose all motivation to keep going with everything in my life. So yes, I do think that things will get better.
- Do you have an unpopular opinion? What is it? Probably. I don’t think like other people do. I think my lack of ability to accept organized religion is pretty unpopular among the masses
- What’s your favourite quote? OH GOD STOP THAT
- Did you/are you going to go to prom? I went. It was pretty pointless.
- What’s the most physically painful thing you’ve ever experienced? Menstrual cramps. The only thing that hurts more is childbirth and kidney stones.
- What’s the most emotionally/mentally painful thing you’ve ever experienced? Heartbreak.
- Have you ever legitimately saved a person’s life? Yes. A friend collapsed and had no pulse or heartbeat and I did CPR. Probably the scariest moment of my life.
- What’s your favourite book genre? I hate reading but I like biographies a lot
- Did you like “Gigli”? Be honest. What the fuck is that?
- Have you ever walked out of a movie at the theatre? Almost. If I had been sitting on the end I would have left.
- Do you peek between your fingers during the scary scenes? No I just watch it like a normal person
- What was your reaction to Tatum getting killed whilst stuck in the pet door in Scream? What?
- Do dogs like you? Yes. I love them too. I have been conspiring to become the female Ace Venture
- Would you say that you project an air of authority? Yeah right, I’m about as authoritative as a mouse.
- Do people listen when you speak? They shouldn’t.
- How are your elbows? Are they okay? I should probably lotion them.
- What is one thing that you do exceptionally well? Be honest. Nothing. Nothing at all. There are things I LIKE doing, but I don’t think I’m necessarily good at them.
- Do you use torrents? What is that
- When was the last time you paid for music? Usually my friends just give me music…
- Are you addicted to technology? Yes.
- Pick a person (you don’t need to give their name). How do you feel about them? Be as honest as you can get yourself to be. They are one of the most amazing and exceptional people in the universe. A little too afraid of conflict. They mean the world to me and to have their friendship is one of the most important things in my life.
- Do you check your computer’s dictionary for the definition of words you’d otherwise feel confident about using during in-person interactions? Just to be sure? I do that on my iPhone
- How heavily to you rely on spellcheck and autocorrect? Not really. I leave it on because it autocorrects my errors when I type fast but when I make up words like musclefuck it makes my life hard.
- Have you ever gotten into an argument on the internet? Did you win? Generally I don’t lose.
- Do you pause movies/TV shows if you have to go to the bathroom or the kitchen, or do you just let them keep playing? If I haven’t seen it that many times I pause it. If I’ve seen it a million times I leave it playing.
- If you use a regular alarm clock, do you have it set to music or that obnoxious beeping? obnoxious ringing
- Peter Pan? One of my favorites.
- How often do you fall up the stairs? I have actually never done that
- Do you pronounce “anti” as ant-eye or ant-ee? (Example: “That scene was very anticlimactic.”) ant-eye.
- Do you pronounce “via” as vee-uh or vie-uh? (Example: “We can get there via Tremont Street.”) Vee-uh
- How often do you forget to close your parentheses? never unless I’m typing a stream of consciousness.
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VOTE FOR MY SISTER
Go for it! Don’t save it for later, voting ends tomorrow!
Voting ends today! Help keep her in the top 10!
Some jerks are buying votes, so please help out! You can vote once a day, so even if you voted previously you can vote again today.
I’d really appreciate it!
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Just so you know…
I sound like an angry mallard with a serious Donald Duck complex. It’s helping me pick up chicks AND dudes. Be jealous. You all wish you had throat issues. #liesimtellingmyself
Also, eating cookie dough is a small joy I need to stop denying myself.
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Remember the love.
16 years ago today one of my idols and one of the most influential people in the world died. His musical Rent touched millions of people across multiple generations worldwide. It also helped shape who I am as a person now and made my life one of feeling and not cold emotion. I am a better person and a better writer because of what he shared with the world. I am where I am because of him. I wish he could have lived to see his effect on people even today.
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Go to Bobwhite Lunch and Supper Counter in Alphabet City. Just Go.
In an attempt to get out more, and to help a friend out who was staying the weekend, we decided to explore more of NYC. I have lived here forever, and grew up within 30 miles of this city, but I never feel like I’ve really EXPERIENCED the city. Ironically enough, the place we wound up eating at felt like a complete departure from the gritty streets of New York. 
Bobwhite Lunch and Supper Counter is a brand new restaurant in Alphabet City, located at 94 Avenue C and just a stone’s throw away from Alphabet Lounge. Their menu may be simple, but they seem to be just getting started in bringing true Southern cuisine to New York City.
Because our aim that evening was quality fried chicken, my friend and I ordered the fried chicken dinner, which came with a biscuit and a side salad. Normally, I put salt on absolutely everything I eat and my friend puts hot sauce on pretty much everything, but during this meal, the salt and pepper shakers didn’t move from their place on the table, and the hot sauce was barely used. Free range chickens really do make all the difference. I’ve never eaten chicken so tasty in my life, and that’s saying a lot; my sisters are both gourmet chefs! My friend chose to put honey on his biscuit, but I was more than satisfied with no condiments for the entire meal. The salad was the perfect addition; it tasted so unbelievably fresh I was almost convinced that the greens came from a garden in the kitchen.
I had been eyeballing the cupcakes(my favorite dessert) when I stepped into the restaurant, and upon hearing the description, I immediately ordered it. It was a buttermilk cupcake with a Dreamsicle icing. When I bit into the first bite, I may have accidentally started crying from sheer joy. THERE WERE REAL ORANGE PEELS IN THE ICING. The combination of the buttermilk cupcake and the orange taste was like an oral orgasm in my mouth. It was a cupcake that did not last long enough. By far, the best cupcake I think I have ever eaten in my life.
I HIGHLY recommend and encourage you all to go eat at Bobwhite Counter POST HASTE. Their service is impeccable and the food is positively top notch. It is literally like stepping from the New York streets into a Southern diner, with authentic bluegrass and folk music to boot. Drop in, have some fried chicken, and tell Keedick, the friendly and handsome fella behind the counter, what you think!
